Okay, so some of you may know that I am a total perfume freak (or am slowly developing into one). I blame it on r/indiemakeupandmore over on Reddit. Anyways, here’s the deal. I keep buying stuff! One of my favorite brands right now is Poesie Perfumes, but I am a bit fond of Solstice Scents too. Granted, those are the only two perfumeries I’ve tried, but…hehehe.
Let’s face it. No one wants to read blogs from boring, fake people about their perfect lives. I kind of mentioned this in my first post, right? It just seems so insincere. Usually when we read blogs we want to connect with the person writing, right? That’s why I’m going to try and be as honest as possible here. (I had a horrible run in with someone nosy who read my blog a year or so ago, and I’ve actually had a hard time getting over that. It was pretty weird, knowing that some creep was Insta-stalking and blog-stalking my website and then trying to interrogate Mr. Husband about my life).
I’m one of those Ju-On kind of people, I guess, always nursing a grudge. I’m trying to be better about it..
Anyways, what else have I been up to lately? Not much, really. I’ve been working my butt off on these video scripts, which is actually a lot of fun. I’ve also been scraping away at my ~secret project~, trying to get it done before the month is over. I’m thinking of it as my NaNoWriMo, even though I was already 35,000 words in when November rolled around. I will officially announce that some time soon, I promise!
I have an issue, guys. I keep doing all this crap to try and prove to myself that I’m worth something. I keep writing and writing and writing and sending query letters and pitches to online publications, and writing poetry, and doing this and that. I’m not even that old yet. And I keep pushing myself to do too much stuff. I’ve been trying to figure out what I’m so afraid of. What am I running for? Who am I running towards?
I think it has something to do with my terrible feeling of inadequacy, which permeates most things I do. I always feel like I’m doing something wrong or that I’m imperfect, so I have to make up for it with a bunch of accomplishments. That way I’ll still be valuable. That’s the trap a lot of my friends have gotten caught in, apparently. I hope I can raise my baby better. I want her to know that she’s always loved, and that she’s valuable simply because she was born. She won’t have to do anything extra to earn my love.
Aside from Bareksa I’ve also been messing around with Tanifund and Bitcoin.co.id, though I’m not making much headway there. I’m too shy, I guess! I’ll make sure to write a review of those as soon as possible. To tell you the truth, I’m having a lot more fun on my beauty blogging website right now…
Mr. Ebi has been working on his TGA (thesis, because in Indonesia even undergraduates have to complete those) for the past few weeks. It gets kind of rough, especially with Baby on our hands. But we’re making it work so far.
I hope everyone’s having a nice day! Don’t get too stressed out about anything.
All my love,